Have you heard the song "In the Deep" by Bird York? It starts of like this:
Thought you had all the answers to rest your heart upon. But something happens, don't see it coming, now you can't stop yourself. Now you're out there swimming... In the deep.
Have you you been out there? I've been out there a few times. There's this image from A Perfect Storm that haunts me, it's the last one (stop if you haven't seen it and don't want to the end ruined) where Mark Whalburg is floating in the big blue ocean. He's all alone. He's surrounded by miles of ocean, angry storm ocean at that, and he looks around at nothing but empty sea. He's dead. There is no hope. He made it out of the boat just to die in the water, alone. But he gives this little soliloquy to his wife, telling her he loves her. That love is what it is all about. In the movie his wife is looking out of window and she pauses, like she got the message, like her words carried on the wind. Foolishness you say? I don’t know. I swear when a good friend of mine was killed in a car wreck I knew the moment she was hit, for my heart stopped and my soul whispered her name to me.
There are moments like that, when you awake, and what on earth do you do then? That image, of floating out in the Deep has stuck with me. I was in Mexico trying to learn how to serve people but caught up in a whirlwind of worry about approaching my mid-twenties and still single. We had a bit of time to ourselves so I swam out into the ocean, as far as I comfortably could go. I faced out into the endless ocean and, as kooky as this might sound, I felt like God spoke to me. He told me, simply, to stop worrying about a husband, that he had one for me, and everything would be alright. He was right on that front and had I not been able to focus on my career to get it started than we would not have been able to keep him home with our daughter these first two years- something important to both of us- and I wouldn’t have found my soul mate had I demanded just any ol’ man back then.
Life keeps tumbling your heart in circles till you... Let go. Till you shed your pride, and you climb to heaven, and you throw yourself off. Now you're out there spinning... In the deep
See. That’s just it. It’s like we are laundry and we’re in the spin cycle and it hurts like hell, but oh how clean and warm and soft we’ll be. And Marky Mark was right, love is what it’s all about. It’s worth swimming up to the top, declaring to your one with your last breath just how much they mean to you. Why don’t we do that now?
In the silence,all your secrets, willraise their worried heads Well, you can pin yourself back together, to who you thought you were.Now you're out there livin'... In the deep.Check out this video, this is an amazing song. I wish I knew how to just put up a video on my blog, sorry, but click here: In the deep.