Thursday, September 17, 2009
I think I've been growing lately. (Of course you idiot, you say, but I mean like as a person not just in girth.) I didn't quite realize it until it was the usual debrief time with Hubby. I started to tell a story about a difficult co-worker and he was being all sympathetic and kept saying how hard it must of been dealing with this person and I kept defending her! Then I actually started to empathize with her and I was able to shrug off some of the slight... for once not jumping to the conclusion that 'oh no! someone hates me! must fix it!!' and I just went about my work. I didn't even think anything about it until she showed up at my cubicle, which was bizarre because we work like a good hundred feet away and I've never seen her past the 50/50 mark... it's usually me going over there you see, to ask a question or twelve since I'm still the newbie and she's the "I'm two years from retirement... grr...." person. So in our little arrangement I go to her. It actually startled me to look up and see her there. She then came as close as she could to apologizing, for her, which is to say it wasn't really an apology but I knew it was the most I could ever hope for from her so I took it so to speak. I've gotten to where I brush off most comments now, which for an extremely huge raging hormonal pregnant woman I say is pretty good. Speaking of hormones though, I was catching up on clips from You Tube about the whole Kayne West debacle and I started crying when Beyonce (sp?) let Taylor use her time to redo the thanks to the audience part. I mean, that's when you know you are an emotional hormonal wreck: when Beyonce makes you bawl.